Friday, June 5, 2009

Our Essence and Our Wall

Our 'Essence' and our 'Wall' -- together comprising the actuality of our existence...our 'compromise-formation' between the two of them at any given moment, the one pure honesty, as honest as we can get, the other, our wall of resistance against such unbridled honesty, the content including our innermost vulnerabilities, and/or innermost narcissistic desires, the two together making up our resulting energy field -- or its absence -- as we walk into a room, noting people or individuals who make us feel more comfortable, more at home, enlarging the boundaries of our Essence -- more Essence, less Wall; or the reverse: more Wall, less Essence, as the boundaries of our Essence recede in the company of someone or someones who makes us feel less comfortable, more on top of our defenses...

And so each and every day, each and every moment, goes by with changing energy fields emulating from us, based partly on the positive and/or negative stereotypes that we bring with us, inside of us, based on relationships and encounters that we have had in the past, and also based on our changing comfort zones in the presence of individuals and/or people who stimulate us in positive and/or negative manners that influence us to share more of our Essence -- or more of our Wall.

-- dgb, April 22nd, 2009; modified and updated June 4th, 2009.